Pushing The Limit & Life Lessons

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Robert Frost

Hey everyone,

Today I quit my other job.

About two months ago I started working at a pelvic floor specific physical therapy office as their office assistant. The job required light cleaning, laundry, answering phones, checking people in/out, scheduling appointments, and data entry. Olive Garden had prepared me for this job more than I realized at first. Making a bed and cleaning a room in between patients was pretty similar to bussing a table when it was really busy. Taking patients in was like taking patrons to their tables, folding laundry= rolling silverware, etc… That part I was really good at.

Data entry and copying. Let me start off with the fact that any homework or exam presented online I always did a lot worse. There is something about computer work that I just can’t focus on. At any medical office this needs to be 100% or else we run into problems. The first few weeks its expected to have some minor issues. But mine wouldn’t go away! It’s all in the details and I’ve always been a big picture person. Crafting, school projects, papers, its all about the big picture and going back for the finishing details. This job was the reverse. I wanted to be good at this job, you know? Knowing that details are my flaw I tried hard, but I was just really bad haha. It didn’t help that the office manager was getting mad at me. She was trying but her teaching and correcting tactics made me feel nervous about keeping the job and bad about my over all performance.

So, today I came in to work to yet another mistake (not a huge deal but none the less a mistake). The owner and I were talking about how we can make this better- she is an amazing woman and I really appreciated her patients with me- and I looked at her and said “let me save you the trouble. I was actually going to give my notice today because, lets be real, I’m not good at this job”. It’s the truth. I wasn’t. I wanted to be, but two months and no improvement means its time to move on. We then talked about life and how it’s exhausting to try and be on my health all the time as a recent graduate as well as a cancer survivor. She told me she thought that I was wonderful and that I would be successful with my fitness/yoga goals and we both laughed and agreed that details aren’t my strong suit.

A weight has certainly been lifted. Quitting a job is scary! Now I just have the gym job and I need to make more money than that! haha but I feel better about myself because I stood up for my needs and my emotional well being.

At least I have more time to work on something I enjoy!

I learned a lot in those two months and even today when I gave my notice, like:

  • what goes into making a patient chart and updating that chart
  • learning about insurances
  • how to leave a job gracefully, even when you weren’t the best employee
  • knowing what you do and don’t deserve in a job
  • dealing with a toxic coworker

I don’t feel bad about myself and acknowledging my flaws. I also don’t see this as a failure. This was just another path I tried and half way down I ended up turning around. »♥«


DIY Face Masks

Hey everyone,

Working in a gym environment can be pretty dirty. With all the cleaning, teaching, and people germs around, it’s hard to stay clean. As a trainer, my body is my true advertisement. People look at you to see see what success can look like (to a degree).  It’s difficult to convey physical benefits of healthy living when you’ve got acne. It’s the woorrssstttt. It’s not that I eat poorly, or have bad hygiene habits. It’s just a combination between sensitive skin and hormonal issues.

Proactive. Murad. Neutrogena. Clean and Clear. Clinique. Aveeno. What do these things have in common? They stopped working after a few months of use.

I’m a little tired of the expensive product lines and rashes, dry skin, red blotches, and any other side effect. I’ve been trying out a lot of different home remedy things and here are my four favorites so far.

1. Egg Mask

One egg, some water, mix it and apply! Personally, I use this every so often because it mimics a chemical peel. Your skin will feel tight and the dried solution will literally peel off. This treatment is helpful in removing the top layer of skin which is mostly dirt and dead skin cells from other layers.Start with rinsing your face off with warm water to get any dirt and help open the pours. Keep it on for 5-10 minutes (try 5 minutes to start). Peel what you can off, and use warm water for the rest.If your skin is feeling dry or looking red, use a non scented cream.

2. Baking Soda

Again pretty simple. Even mix of baking soda (not powder) and water. This mask is pretty messy to put on, and cracks as it drys, so keep a towel nearby. Apply thoroughly and keep on for 5-15 minutes. Rinse with warm water and moisturize if needed. The baking soda acts more like a “pulling to the surface” face mask. If you’ve ever used a face strip for blackheads, its the same concept. I like this one every once a week or once every two weeks.

3. Honey

I’ve heard really great things about honey as a face mask. Honey has a lot of all natural healing properties that can be used for more than just acne. All you need is raw honey, nothing but honey in the ingredients. I used about a tablespoon and applied it directly to your face. Apply and rub in for about a minute and then let it sit for up to 15 minutes. One woman said she washed her face twice a day with it, leaving the mask on for a minute or so. My first attempt was only for 5 minutes right before my shower. I really expected it to be a lot more messy than it turned out to be. It also come right off in water.

4. Apple Cider Vinegar Toner

Recently I’ve run into more and more people who have had success using this product as a toner. I made the mistake of literally applying it right to my face and it burned my skin. After more research I found a lot of people do a 1:3 ratio with water. Some people even put in some essential oils to make it smell nice (because it smells wicked strong no matter what). The nice part is, you only need a few drops. I made a 3 oz container and used maybe 7 drops of each. The only flaw of this mask is that I can smell it when I sweat. But if it helps my acne then I’ll deal. Be sure you get all natural vinegar. If it says “with the mother” it means its all natural. It has those weird floaty bits in it.

Hopefully anyone out there who needs help finds these helpful… and that it helps me with my damn acne!

I’ll keep you all posted »♥«

45 Day Challenge

Hope you all had a nice fourth of July! I ran a road race with my cousins, which is always fun. It’s a nice tradition we’ve started and I’d like to get more people to sign up next year with me.

Some how I’m always in the 700’s

I also completed my first 45 Day Challenge! It started off as an experiment for an upcoming doctors appointment- if I cut out almost all dairy for a month and a half before my appointment would I notice anything different in my blood tests/ skin complexion/general well being?I also have quite the love affair with ice cream. I have no words to describe how much I love ice cream. It’s always been my go-to- my biggest emotional eating culprit. So, 45 days without my sad food was difficult to say the least. The cravings, the anxiety. It’s amazing what routines we put ourselves in and how difficult it is to break them. Yesterday, was day 45 and I treated myself to a small chocolate vanilla twist. I’ve always eaten my ice cream quickly and this time I slowed down to enjoy the taste. I guess I was in a hurry for it to get into my stomach and never really enjoyed the taste of ice cream. It was kind of an alarming realization. I also realized there isn’t really any super cute way to eat an ice cream haha.

The child in me rejoices!

This challenge made me feel really good about myself. I said I would do something and I followed through with it and came out knowing a little more about the person I want to be. So, I decided to take on the second biggest emotional thing I do- shopping. The literally hundreds of clothing items I own from going online and binge shopping to avoid the real issue has become to big to handle. “New clothes will make you feel better”. I think about the money I spent on all these materialistic wants and how it could have gone to something more wholesome or more fun. Here we go, day 1 has begun! Wish me luck! »♥«